Players and Love.

(delayed post)

April 8, we reached 3. 

Honestly, we barely made it.

We had planned to spend the day at the beach but due to some unforeseen complication and confusion, we had to put that aside and deal with what’s important – US. 

There’s no need to discuss the intricate details of what had happened; what’s important is that we always find a way to work it out.  Yes, it’s not perfect  but we can always make it better… Or simply put  “two people won’t be together for so long if they can’t forgive each other’s little failure.” (quoted from twitter #ihatequotes)

 

And so the game continues...

Just a little Pinoy Fi-esta!

And some bombs on Greenzone.

 

 … it goes that some celebration should be done quietly and privately.

Bei is Blessed.

I believe this more today — than any day in the past 25 years.

• dahil half of my handa was given as a gift from close friends. Yes. They did cook for me. Chopsuey from Syd, cake from the NAM girls, embutido by Bhing and Chariz, Chicken bbq by Lei and Wil, Menudo by Derek, Absolut Kurant by Cate, a case of San Mig by Bro. Aren’t you gonna be happy if you were me?
• dahil I had more than 30 guests and they were all raving about how delicious the foods were. na ito ang handaan, kainan, na hindi nila palalagpasin. Napakasarap marinig na lahat sila ay busog na busog.
• dahil meron akong kaibigan (Rochelle Uy) na nanginginig sa takot dahil nagagalit nako at napakatagal ng dala nyang cake. Haha. Alam ko kung gano nya ko ka-love at ayaw nya kong ma-badtrip. : )
• dahil maraming naki DJ Hero, naki-shisha, naki-lasing at naki videoke.
• dahil people are giving me gifts even if I don’t expect them to.
• dahil I have a bf na hindi mo na kailangang sabihan na maglinis ng bahay bago ang araw ng party. and of course because he gave me a blackberry as a gift. I super looooove it!
• dahil I had 102 notifications on FB – all greeting me on my bday.
• dahil I was able to talk to Mom, Ayen, Denise and Bea. They are all so lovely and fun to talk to.
• dahil I woke up with a missed call from my Dad. He greeted me on my bday. He called me sweetie. I guess this was a a first in I don’t really know how many years.
• because I have another year to spend with all the people I love and loves me back.
• dahil sobra akong naging masaya.
• at bukod sa lahat because my best friends who were at the other side of the map had made http://weloveyoubei.blogspot.com for me. It really made me cry. I can’t ask for anything more just by having them. I know I’ll never be alone. Never. : ) What I love the most about this site is that it reminds me how wonderful person I am and that I am always loved. 

Words aren’t enough to express how thankful I am for everyone. I am really-very-overwhelmingly happy. You all have touched my life, I hope I could do the same to all of you.

http://weloveyoubei.blogspot.com

Ordinary Day and an Extraordinary Love.

I found myself at the hospital as early as 7:30 in the morning.
No, there’s nothing wrong with me. In fact, I’m feeling a little perfect today.

Stephen had been sick since Friday. He had about 42-degree fever last night. I was dead-worried. I felt that the sponge-bath didn’t help at all…  I slept late. I kept on thinking and planning for the coming day… and I wasn’t wrong. He still had a sky-high fever when I woke up at half past 6, so I decided to rush him at the hospital.

Oh my. The presumption totally blew my head. They had him sent to a government hospital to run an H1N1 test. What the!? H1N1? Quarantine? Are you serious? Ako din? Ganon? Ilang days? The questions started to run through my head but I didn’t let him notice. I was even teasing him that he was steaming hot.

I got seriously worried. On our way there, I prayed that it wasn’t that crucial.

His fever went up and down in a 20 to 30-minute interval; the normal lab tests took place and stated a viral infection in his lungs and another asthma attack.  Apparently, this is becoming very often.  I think we need to be more cautious than before… He had been very sickly and I need to look after his health more earnestly.

Triage. X-ray. Blood Sample. Lab tests. Nebulizer.
All I could do was to sit down and wait.
Then the chilling thought of losing him anytime came to me… No. I am not ready for that. NOT ANYTIME. I think I want to be his wife yet; I want L and S named after him.  I know I am crazy for even thinking about it but I guess I am already out on a limb to lose the only best friend I have in this side of the map.

And so today I appreciate you more.

I want to do everything I can to take care of you… Coz with you, I have had the healthiest mutual dealings of my life.

With all the efforts circling the creation of a right relationship, I know for sure that the ones I exerted for you are the ones that I will never regret.

Our life together had been both joyous and tested but I want you to know that whichever way, my parting soul will not remember the laptop, mobile or even jewelries you gave me. Instead, I will bring the fondest memories I had with you…

…the days that we have nothing but each other
…the warmth of your arms that embraces me every night
…the conversation that ends our day
…the way you assure me that we can make it through whatever comes along
…the unquestionable support to whatever decision I make
…the way you slap me with my mistakes so I can learn
…the way you assure your love in times that I don’t deserve it
…and the way you just know what to do when I haven’t even said a word

In short, it is the impact of your presence; the times I love and felt loved.

 

That very ordinary day…

…And that extraordinary love.

Things..

Like this make me realize that I can love you again and again and EVEN STRONGER.

Well said Hub. Bahala na cheesy na to..

I Love You Too. 😉

And you kissed me like you meant it.

 

Random texts. Young. Dinner dates. Spontaneous. Stolen kisses. Risk-takers. Saturday nights. Escapists.

After shift breakfasts. Hard headed. Over night moments. Complicated.

 

This is a story that started in a very unjust way that had eventually turned into something beyond wonderful.

Officially 2 years now and the love is still heavenly and good as new.

 

 

Just because of that one stormy night.

That Cucina Victoria dinner. That endless conversation. That car park moment.

Our lives were completely changed.

You’re spot-on! I will always remember. Because you kissed me; and I knew you meant it.

 

Breathe in for luck.
Breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race, from self-control.
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine.
We’re doing fine.
We’re doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won’t you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, “let’s not get busted.”
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
“Hey did you get some?”
Man that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can’t hear.
So we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won’t you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember.
Always remember the sound of the stereo.
The dim of the soft lights.
The scent of your hair, that you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock, when we realized “It’s so late!”
And this walk that we share together.
The streets were wet, and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it, and let you in.
And you stood at the door, with your hands on my waist.
And you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew…that you meant it.

–Hands Down, Dashboard Confessional