As I’ve mentioned in my earlier posts, the past months have been very difficult for me, for us. We have had declined hopes over and over and had been really pushed to the edge. We held on for a long time and when we’re about to finally fall, The One above had grabbed our hands just right in time. It came in a very weird way and a very unusual place. Ask me if I believe in answered prayers? Definitely YES. (pero sa ibang post na yun)
I wouldn’t say that the dark days are gone but I know that a door had been opened for us; little by little, we are starting to get back on track and I couldn’t be more thankful for that. So, in this case, I think the usual prayer I say everyday could not compensate the blessings that we have been receiving lately. We definitely need to go to church.
It was an unexplainable feeling though as I take the first step going inside. Sabi nga ni hub, “Alam mo yung feeling na parang andami dami mong pagkukulang saka kasalanan.” EXACTLY. I had the same feeling. Right there and then, I realized that I have spent too much time on unnecessary things and shame on me to have not heard mass for a while. This is something I am not really proud of; but I know in God’s eyes, we all deserve a second chance and so, we are taking ours. Hub and I had promised that from now on, we’d make it a habit.
Dapat lang! And I really do believe that I have to… mainly because it is the right thing to do.
At pangalawa, para maiwasan ang mga sumusunod na pangyayari kahapon:
1. Upon reciting Apostle’s Creed:
Me: I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and earth.
Everyone: We believe in one God, the Father, the Almighty, maker of heaven and earth, and of all that is, seen and unseen.
Me: (Anu ba yun, hindi ko marinig maayos..) I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.
Everyone: We believe in one Lord, Jesus Christ, the only Son of God, eternally begotten of the Father, God from God, Light from Light, true God from true God, begotten…
Me: (Anu daw?) He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary.
Everyone: For us men and for our salvation, he came down from heaven: by the power of the Holy Spirit he was born of the Virgin Mary, and became man.
Me: (Huh? Mali talaga eh..) Hub, naiba na pala??
Hub: Oo nga, sa tagal natin di nakasimba, iba na pala ang Apostle’s creed..
Me: Hehehe.. anu ba yan.. kaya pala di ako makasunod! Toink!
2. During Communion:
Me: (Pa-smile-smile pa.. Nagmamadali tumayo para mauna sa pila)
Lay Minister: Body of Christ
Me: (Suddenly got confused and whispered..) Ah.. Uhm.. Anu nga yun?? Thank you??
Pag talikod ko, I was like… Ughh!! What da!! Mali! Amen pala.. (Anu ba yan, galing Catholic school, tanga-tanga!! Baka magalit sakin si St. Mary saka St. Paul neto..) Sore na.. dbale, may next time pa naman..
And then I knelt. and then I cried.. (napakaiyakin ko talaga..) Yan ang effect ng matagal na hindi nagsimba.. But as I finish my prayer, gumaan na ang loob ko.. Alam ko naman it’s not too late to change. And na-miss ko tuloy bigla si mama.. Kasi sa Pinas, walang palya, every Sunday morning simba talaga kame kahit puyat galing call center.. Alam nyo ba kung baket?
Kasi, pag tulog ka pa, tatawagin ka nyan.. “Deng (tawag sakin sa bahay), tayo na. simba na tayo..” at pag deadma ka, iisa pa. ”Deng tayo na jan, wala na tayo aabutan..” at pag talagang di ka natinag, wala ka ng maririnig sa kanya.. mararamdaman mo nlng na nanlalagkit ang leeg mo at namamawis ang mga singit dahil… tenen! pag gising mo, patay na ang electric fan!! Mamatay ka sa init.. Hahaha!! Ang wais ng mama ko noh!! Wag ka! Effective yan! Wala kang choice kundi tumayo.. tas iisipin ko nlng.. dbale after simba, glorietta naman kame eh.. Hehehe! 😀 Oh God, Make me Holy!!
BEING BRATINELLA 